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• i love how weekends make everything better!
• i hate how my mom brings me right back down to a new low
• i love how he can make me smile when i really dont want to
• i hate how i am now responsible for myself
• i love how i get to see my cousin more
• i hate how there is literally a city between those i love
• i love how new friends make you feel
• i hate how mad he can get
• i love how much he cares about other people
• i hate how he doesn't care about himself
• i love how my cousin has a new someone
• i hate how his plan isn't going the way it should
• i love how school gets me away from my family
• i hate how my mom wants me always with my family
• i love how my daddi buys me childish things
• i hate how my mom scolds my dad for giving me things
• i love how my jay is so simple minded
• i hate how my jay is such an ass

ok i'm done....

[	Current Mood	|	awake	]
[	Current Music	|	ac in the library	]

last night:

nothing more can be said...today will be better i know it will!

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*smile* - i needed that

mondays help

thank you luis

it was a long-sleepy day. i took a nap in my car and khef came to join me.

i had so much work to do...and i really didnt get much of it done. i did try though...damn did i try!

i think this day just sorta draged on...most everyone left by 3ish...i was there til 6! damn 3.30-5.30 class. but i like the fact that i dont have to go home...but eh..

i'm tired and i still have more reading to do...yay college...

bye

*neen*

how my brain feels:

[	Current Mood	|	depressed	]
[	Current Music	|	random shit on the radio	]

( i warn u now that it is long...but if you really care then by all means read it )

( with your permission )

[	Current Mood	|	content	]
[	Current Music	|	indian music via aim	]

 Sometimes a broken promise can put a smile on a bitter face

For some reason or another I have been in the crying mood. I dont know why but I just do...is that wierd? I mean nothing has gotten me angry or sad enough to cry lately but I just feel the need to cry. I want to...I dont know. I think my mind and body have gone on vacation and I'm not sure when either will be back. I've been blanking out quite a bit too. I did it a couple of times while driving...not so sure that's safe. I keep drifting and thinking about just nothing lately. I mean of course its refreshing but not all the time. I may just need some real alone time. I think I may take a walk or something tomorrow or another day. I need to relax by myself outside of my room for a while. I mean I really dont need to go anywhere - either like in my own backyard or maybe to the park down the street. Either I need to be alone or with someone I can really trust and just relax. Not do anything - just relax and hang out. No talking needed, at least not about anything that matters...The real question is - Do I really need to find a cure?

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[	Current Music	|	tr-lunch - 104.1 KRBE	]

me, khef, jayson, and ryan went go-carting...i beat them all in the last race! and the only reason why they beat me the time before is cuz jayson hit me. man that damn car jumped on the ramp. scared the shit outta me. it was hella-cold. it was nice though. my mom actually let me go out. we got in at like midnight. i had a nice good-night kiss. ryan is a dumb ass...

we got 220 tickets. jayson and ryan played pool while me and khef chilled out down stairs...it was kool. i'm glad he came down on my side of town. i am still like really wierded out that my mom let me go. i love my baby brother. he's really good at thinkin on his feet when he needs to.  

he ran into the door when we got home, it was kinda dumb. we laughed our asses off. he went back into the truck and started over. it was hella-hilarious.

i love my baby brother!

[	Current Mood	|	happy	]
[	Current Music	|	puddle of mudd	]

guys are very funny...

especially the ones you just meet...they are the funniest of all

Link V: though I have a confession to make....
trinirule13: yes...
Link V: I am using a somewhat subtle form of flirting.
Link V: and I apologize if that offends
trinirule13: lol..no it's ok..i kinda figured that out
trinirule13: [its nice that ur honest]
Link V: well, what benefit do I get from not being honest?
Link V: as self-centered as it is, I figure if I lie, it's gonna end up fucking me over in the long run
Link V: so...I might as well be kinda blunt and honest about things.
trinirule13: yeah, sounds good to me
Link V: secondly, you're a nice girl.  No need for me ot treat you badly.
trinirule13:
Link V: and third....you're an indian girl. who causes naughty thoughts in my head.  and THAT deserves honesty.
trinirule13: lol

In other news: I had fun the other night [monday night] with Rawls, Butler and Kyle. We went to the Marquee to see Wolfcreek. Worst movie ever! Seriously, don't go see it unless you wanna spend $7.50 to make out with your significant other. I was bout to fall asleep in the damn movie. It moved too damn slow....erg. Oh well it wasn't my money that was wasted. Rawls took me out so he paid for it.  I love Rawls' mommi's car, Chrystler 300! Pretty maroon too! It was funny though, he has a GPS system in it and he got lost. I knew where I was going but he insited that he knew where he was...um no. It was funny. We went to Denny's afterwards. It was fun. We kept making fun of the people round us and the people that were working there. It was great. I got home round midnight...we were going to go see Brenda but I didn't want my mom going crazy bout me and Jay being out too late, I told Rawls to just drop us at home and he could go to her house from mine. It was a fun night though. It was really funny though. Butler opened the door for his chick Kyle right, so Rawls was like, "you expect me to do that for you now?" And I was like, "NO, you haven't done it the whole night so no.." It was funny though. Jay was just there. He kinda just went cuz my mom made him, I don't think that she trusts Rawls. Its funny though, she doesn't even know that he's my ex.

When I got home I called Khef. We were on the phone till 5 in the morning. It was nice.

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Happy Merry Christmas Eve!

I hope everyone gets what they wish for!